Illusions

2008-01-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

i came across this post...(some names have been deleted to maintain privacy)

Its so true....if onl i was just half as lucky. sorrows in each human being is beyong explanation....

....Everything happened for a reason.. Peoples always mentioned anger words out of their mouth when angry.. I've already changed so much but u think still I've not been a good wife nor mummy.... I tried to give my best but it's always not enough.. I'll get very affected by all your hurtful words . Our life is not gonna be the same without you by our side but I'll stay strong for our *kid.. Dun worry.. I will take good care of him.. I knew u love him alot & I swear I will nv use him to hurt u~ I really hope even that we can't be husband & wife.. We still gonna be good friends like in the past ok.. Promise.. U're someone who always kept everythings to yourself & exploded @ 1 go.. Perhaps that's why I always can't understand you.. I know the love we once shared will fade off anytime.. But the memories stayed.. Tks you for everythings since the day we 1st met...t.. & I will move on with my own life with *kid. Just wanna let u know that Mummy nv side me.. She scold me as well.. Telling me what's my bad point.. She nv side u nor me.. So hope u dun go against my mum.. she always say *** is stubborn & bad but seeing me crying alone, she pour a cup of water & pat on my head before going to slp.. Even we always argued @ home but I knew they love me too.. Perhaps kids like us who grew up in a single parent background is like this.. w/o father's care thus we're like this today.. Mummy worked so hard to bring 4 of us up single handed.. But we're always not so nice to her.. Even I gave her money every month, I knew tat's not enough to repay her.. She always advise & let us decided wat we wan.. Like getting marry.. getting pregnant.. getting our flat.. Did we even tell her in the 1st place? Nope.. But she respected us & let us have it our way... I admit I'm at fault in our marriage as well.. and I will never let**** grow up like the same way as I do.. I will give & provide him with the best I could afford.. While deleting everything away.. I saw this testimonial I've leave for u in your frdster when we patched back years ago... :-

Hubby.. Thanks for giving our marriage another chance..
Thank you for wanting to spent the rest of your life with Baobei & me again..
I really appreciate everything you did.. Love ya~ ("v")

I cried upon seeing this... I went back into our room.. It's so empty.. Everything is no longer the same.. Without you & your stuffs.. My only regrets is that we're unable to get a new wedding band, unable to take our wedding photography & nv get the chance to discuss & renovate our nest with all the ideas we've been planning.. We can't give **** a home that we've promised him..

In the end.. This's still the path we're ending at... Sincerely wishing you all the best.. Almost everyone dun look up on young parents.. I tot we could proved them wrong.. I believed we've did our best & this's not the ending we wanted.. I still remember U told me, U'll be there with me holding my hand to cross the road when we're both 60 years old.. Now, all this is left at a corner in my heart.. My memories with you........ till the day I close my eyes forever....

Baobei , Mummy & Daddy is really sorry.. We nv want this to happen.. Perhaps when you grow up, U'll understand someday.. Mummy is really sorry to bring this miserable life to you... I don't have to show or prove to others, how much I love you.. It's not just on the surface or just for show.. I admit I've not been a good mummy.. Always bringing works home & neglect you.. Just bcos I dun wanna surf net @ work so I came home to surf the internet & neglect you.. But no matter how.. Mummy will work hard & do my best in teaching you well.. Taking good care of you in future.. Trust Mummy... I really love you lots my dear boy... Sorry for everythings..

People, this should be my last update.. I'm leaving this blog of mine for good.. Everything shall remain as memories.. I will be the the watching from the sky for precious *** in reality & not in this cyberworld.. It's time to wake up from all these, XX..e need you all than anyone do...

GoodBye... =)

2007-08-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

over the weekends, we drove up to paris....500+km for nearly 5 hours. paris is reali a nice place to be in. the hotel is relatively cheap according to people its 72 euros per room per night. i was thinking of goin to paris disney land with darius probably soon. but nxt destination is taiwan. but he has no more leave and prolly onli during hari raya puasa we can go. will plan when i am bac. seriously i suddenly like travelling.. haha i think i always did. been to aus, HK, ROME, LONDON, vienice , PH, THAILAND, FRANKFURT,US, GERMANY.....all the nice places. Sure i am lucky. tis has been truly a nice experience i must say....its a chance u seldom get to be trained in a foreign country. ur experience and knowledge grows. how mani pple get such a chance??
heard my darius can walk ard so happi....paris effiel tower and the mona lisa picture, the place where da vinci code was flimed. imagine how cool was that....germany heidelberg castle, NYC...all the places pple would need to save a lifetime to go. its not cheap. US we stayed for 17 nights hotel stay was 3000 over bucks. exclude air fare of 2000+. i reali enjoyed myself.

ok my stupid maid has a prob..she thinks he bought her pork madness. we all know she cant eat pork yet she can make that comment. and sayshe wan go bac? fine....i am gonna send her home when i get back. i cannot tolerate such nonsense......

2007-07-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

its freezing cold...can someone pls pls help me??? i onli brouht a jacket and the temp here is like less than 15 degree celcius? the wind blow my whole face freezes up.
now at work....XIANS!!!!! rested whole day yesterday had some chinse food at asia restaurant. freaking ex. 17.50 euros for hotpot mushrooms. that is alomost 40 bucks in sing? isnt that mad? hurr....
can someone teach me to pass time here??????

2007-07-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

went to heidelberg and mannheim yesterday...saw castles..cool rite?? the food here is seriously ex and small nt like america. i miss america lots. took the train up to heidelberg cool.goin uo to frank furt nxt weekend
can u imagine all the shops are closed on sundays? is a rest day for all the germans. i am nt racist but i seriously think i dun like....ermmm...u know..
but the history went a long way....

pictures time:

see that bridge..rhine river. from the castle

the castle

let me in....

vassertum

see how ex the food is euros x 2 for convesion. thats nt a meal onli burger.

2007-07-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

yoz....flew off for frankfurt. i am in a shit place i feel....sucks. its some holiday season over here and we couldnt get a hotel so some collegues from frankfurt...booked us a hotel...and it sucks. i'm lucky as compared to some of my collegues. some of their rooms have NO aircon, weird rite. it seems its a norm bt to have airconditioin as its COOL and that electricity is expesive. WTF....haiyoyo still gt til mid aug to last. wonder how when our bosses arrive tomoorrow. they will freak out. also food here is fucking ex. imagine a glass 200ml coke cost 3.20 sing dollars ridiculous. everything here is x2 of singapore currency.
gosh...i reali miss America..people are sooo nice there, shed tears when our collegues sent us off..sighss

germany when i first arrived....the taxi that fetched us. SPED....at 160km/hr. xiao...all the cars here do so in fact. OMG. de n the stupid hotel like a motel. dunno how for the nxt weeks on...den the language. eh HELLO no one speaks engligh all german. i dun even understand what the hell they r talking. even to eat all german...oick and choose? gamble. even to eat a sandwich...my friend who absatains from pork had to imitate the sound of a chicken and pig to ask wad animal or kind of meat thatw as. ridiculous...

after my stint in i would choose to reloccate to america if there is a chance too. will seriously consider. i dun mind. like the life there. 7-3pm. den the people there go out as a family and have alot of family time. i like that...

ok gtg sigining off from a land of dumps...:P

2007-07-22T10:33:00.000+08:00

watch harry potter today. freaking ex 7.50 USD.. was quite boring and i fell asleep. woke up when potter returned to school. first time to a cineam with free seating luckily nt pack if nt will prolly end up seating in the front rows....den went to have dinner..recently a fren of mine is upset. hope he will be strong. i believe there is no true love forever, and that word LOVE is too profound. LOVE and PASSION is a different thing. PASSION is wad make a relation go strong and nt LOVE. PASSION is when u are excited or concerned or feel u wan to do soemthing out of ur way for somebody each day. LOVE stays longer den PASSION do sad to say this..but its the fact of life.

2007-07-21T13:07:00.001+08:00

oh ya did i say there was an explosion at NYC 44th street? some steam pipe burst. but i am fine peeps... the roads were closed and the air was polluted wil abesstos, whicch causes harm to health. pple were advused to leave their aircon runnin on at home...cool huh. electrcity rising....gonna watch Harry potter tommoorow den my laudrymat for washing my dirty clothes!! gonna sleep now...tiredz

2007-07-21T12:59:00.000+08:00

leaving for frankfurt soon, beginnin to miss the STATES. after settling in comfortably and beggining to feel American, its time to leave. i had dinner at menlo park mall today. good pasta and of course DESSERT. because of the portion and the kind of food being served here(all the carbos). have been workin out at the gym 3x a week. but still my intake exceeds the calories lost.....
bought COACH items!!! heee felt a waste if didnt buy. but didnt buy the handbags..dun reali like it?? haha maybe i will change my mind... :P

2007-07-16T08:21:00.000+08:00

been a veri veri ling time since i last blog....now m in new jersey. working duh....onli a week have passed. cried badly when i first came. now picking up. but each night when i try to sleep i think i feel sad. haiz!!
vistied NYC on saturday. walked from times SQ - chinatown and back again. took the subway, visited the largest toy's rus. sat on the ferris wheel in toy'srus. damn cool. had dinner at planet hollywood. NYC is abt 30 mins away from NJ. been shopping non stop since i arrived.the weather here is fredaking crazy wither veri hot or cold. my hotel room bed is veri comfy. its a SLEEP bed whcih minimises tossing which will make u have a good nite sleep. indeed. COACH is cheap. but didnt buy except for mummy.photots have bed uploaded in friendster. ciaoz......

2007-06-25T13:34:00.000+08:00

leaving for phillipines in 2 days time.....packing and packing. since i will only return on saturday. therafter i will need to leave for new york and germany. this is where my nightmare begins...away from my baby and hubbi for 6 weeks. OMG.. SOBS SOBS. missing them already. aiya y did i get into this shit???? urgh....
bought my web cam from challenger using dad's membership cheap eh 39.90 member price for a logitech web cam.... also travel adapter!! socks and my walking shoes.... $$$ spent alot. hai yo yo. brought the girls out 3 of them ok with darius on saturday.
i told hubbi we all veri capable, bring baby out den 3 girls (7, 11, 14 yrs old) all by ourselves...no maid,no mum just us..cool
brought baby for his Gymboree, he was so happy and of course tired..he was so excited durinhg class that he kept shouting...
oh ya baby fell of from my master bed. "thump" poor thing....went we rushed in he was already wailing. my heart hurts terrribly!!!!!

a photo to melt harts:

2007-06-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

yea bac to bloggin. here in the wee hrs of the mornin waitin for my Macdonald's. supper time!!!

my daddio was recentl upsetted by some freak incident over a wedding. my personal take on this matter: the groom himself has to be blame. it's ur wedding, u should be doin the planning nt others. also if u need a emcee say earlier, dun mistake a emcee for a speaker. unless u dun even know wads the difference. eg: ur frien/cousin can lead the guest into the wedding agenda. a speaker is someone who gives speech ie, the couple themselves, parents or any other istinguised person. so wake up from ur child's play!!! recallin this inciden makes me laugh. if u know the weddding itself sucks den y people cant comment? it was nothing defamatory,it was jus all the word "miscommunication"

stupid though.

did i mention? its always nice to have ur pwn credit line...its realy shiok..!!

signing off
awaiting my cruise trip...........

2007-05-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

received this from a fren....free watch it....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wk51lfLfIQ

a few days ago on the train i gave up my seat to a preggie. thinking back when i was preggie how many people actuali gave up their seat? hmmm i feel singaporeans are not veri gracious though. well for the morning ride to work at i usually get to sit since i alawyas try to squeeze my way through, but after work the usual peak period. with so many people pushing and i standing at te door....could onli stand all the way from queenstown to boon lay. even till the day i gave birth i rarely got a seat. sickening huh. alot of people "pretends" to sleep and even if they saw u they just quickly shut their eyes. when it was those people who were preggie they expected us to give up seats to them but when they have old and aged they do not give up their seats. for a better world pls...

2007-05-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

been realli realli busy. training sessions on from 9-6pm. gosh so much things and so little time. need to come up with SOPs for the new hires . attachment starts the following week to 3 big perfume houses in singapore. didnt know there was soo much abt perfumes. well will practically deal with over 200 raw materials. thats the amt of work at start up with atachment in the US and Germany in july. i do feel pressured at times to keep the performance and the big resposibilty thats on me. but is an opportunit tat will not come another time.how many can be part of a start up plant? and get to be trained overseas and lead a team? and wads more a MNC thats reputable..... the perfumes i mean is the smell u get in the washing liqids, shampoos, conditioner and many more. eg if u smell 'pantene' when u shampoo your hair its us the fragrance!!....

thanks for all the encouragement. yes, the grass is greener over the other side. no pain no gain!!! will work hard.

2007-05-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

a struggle...

my last day in HP was on friday May the 3rd....well i did struggle to make a decision at the very lasy minute. it made me had sleeplass nights. I applied for a job in a another company also another fortune 500 MNC. this job requires me to travle to germany and the US for traning. I went through pain to get into his job. i went for aptitude test, odour test, written test (maths, physics) and a 8 question paper describing my work experience, before i was selected to meet the 3 interviewers. i finally was accpeted by the company. This company is listed 1 of the best companies to work for. I accepted the offer. however, last min through i received another offer, was 2 minds.. if i were to remain,there would be probably little career advancement, but comfortable whereas if i made the switch, i would be seeing my career life maybe fulfilling??. bt to be away from my son pains me. Well, no pain , no gain huh.

it pains me even till now. the thought to be away for 5 weeks reali hurts me big time. i am still worried. bt if i did not make this step, i would be no where in the nxt 5 yrs. this job wlll be able to provide me this training ground. so i decided to grit my teeth and go ahead with decision. on a brighter note joining this company has alot of benefits....real good i must say.

traning schedules i recieved yesaterdae is packed tightly but at least i see my future when the nxt phase people arrives in sept where i will be training them. I will lead the logistics and warehouse production.

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2006 Revenues (millions): $91,658
Headquarters: Palo Alto, CA
Get quote: HPQ

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Procter & Gamble
Fortune 500 rank: 25 (Previous rank: 24)
2006 Revenues (millions): $68,222
Headquarters: Cincinnati, OH
Get quote: PG

Price increases and new products at the consumer goods giant, which makes everything from Crest toothpaste to Folgers coffee and Pampers diapers, helped deliver a 20% increase in earnings, to $8.7 billion last year. Additionally, its $57 billion acquisition of Gillette in 2005 added $1 billion to last year's top line

AMERICA'S MOST ADMIRED COMPANIES
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Procter & Gamble
Top 20 Rank: 10
Rank among: Household and Personal Products: 1
The Cincinnati-based consumer-products giant has been expanding its global reach for longer than most of the companies on our list. It now sells soap and such in more than 13,000 cities and towns in China. The company was ranked No. 4 last year

100 Best Companies to Work For 2007

68. Procter & Gamble (PG)
What makes it so great?
Though P&G—which acquired Gillette in 2005—is massive—it uses anonymous hotlines, blogs by executives, and online Q&As with its CEO to help employees feel connected.

Headquarters: Cincinnati
Top 3 (of 145) U.S. locations: Cincinnati , Mehoopany , Boston 2005 revenue ($ millions): 56,741

U.S. employees 34,142
Employees outside U.S. 75,858
Jobs
New jobs (1 year) 540
% job growth (1 year) 2
% voluntary turnover 2
Applicants 125,432
Pay Average annual pay
Most common job (salaried):
Production Department Manager $87,400
Most common job (hourly):
Technician $48,673
Benefits
Job sharing program? Yes
Professional training (hrs./yr.) 68
Paid sabbaticals? No
100% health care coverage No
Diversity
% minorities 20%
% women 43%
Has nondiscrimination policy
that includes sexual orientation? Yes

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I WANNA WORK FOR WALMART, MICROSOFT, YAHOO.......

2007-04-26T15:16:00.000+08:00

What is hand, foot, and mouth disease?

Hand, foot, and mouth disease (HFMD) is a common illness of infants and children. It is characterized by fever, sores in the mouth, and a rash with blisters. HFMD begins with a mild fever, poor appetite, malaise ("feeling sick"), and frequently a sore throat. One or 2 days after the fever begins, painful sores develop in the mouth. They begin as small red spots that blister and then often become ulcers. They are usually located on the tongue, gums, and inside of the cheeks. The skin rash develops over 1 to 2 days with flat or raised red spots, some with blisters. The rash does not itch, and it is usually located on the palms of the hands and soles of the feet. It may also appear on the buttocks. A person with HFMD may have only the rash or the mouth ulcers.

Is HFMD the same as foot-and-mouth disease?

No. HFMD is often confused with foot-and-mouth disease of cattle, sheep, and swine. Although the names are similar, the two diseases are not related at all and are caused by different viruses. For information on foot-and-mouth disease, please visit the web site of the US Department of Agriculture.

What causes HFMD?

Viruses from the group called enteroviruses cause HFMD. The most common cause is coxsackievirus A16; sometimes, HFMD is caused by enterovirus 71 or other enteroviruses. The enterovirus group includes polioviruses, coxsackieviruses, echoviruses and other enteroviruses.

Is HFMD serious?

Usually not. HFMD caused by coxsackievirus A16 infection is a mild disease and nearly all patients recover without medical treatment in 7 to 10 days. Complications are uncommon. Rarely, the patient with coxsackievirus A16 infection may also develop "aseptic" or viral meningitis, in which the person has fever, headache, stiff neck, or back pain, and may need to be hospitalized for a few days. Another cause of HFMD, EV71 may also cause viral meningitis and, rarely, more serious diseases, such as encephalitis, or a poliomyelitis-like paralysis. EV71 encephalitis may be fatal. Cases of fatal encephalitis occurred during outbreaks of HFMD in Malaysia in 1997 and in Taiwan in 1998.

Is HFMD contagious?

Yes, HFMD is moderately contagious. Infection is spread from person to person by direct contact with nose and throat discharges, saliva, fluid from blisters, or the stool of infected persons. A person is most contagious during the first week of the illness. HFMD is not transmitted to or from pets or other animals.

How soon will someone become ill after getting infected?

The usual period from infection to onset of symptoms ("incubation period") is 3 to 7 days. Fever is often the first symptom of HFMD.

Who is at risk for HFMD?

HFMD occurs mainly in children under 10 years old, but may also occur in adults too. Everyone is at risk of infection, but not everyone who is infected becomes ill. Infants, children, and adolescents are more likely to be susceptible to infection and illness from these viruses, because they are less likely than adults to have antibodies and be immune from previous exposures to them. Infection results in immunity to the specific virus, but a second episode may occur following infection with a different member of the enterovirus group.

What are the risks to pregnant women exposed to children with HFMD?

Because enteroviruses, including those causing HFMD, are very common, pregnant women are frequently exposed to them, especially during summer and fall months. As for any other adults, the risk of infection is higher for pregnant women who do not have antibodies from earlier exposures to these viruses, and who are exposed to young children - the primary spreaders of enteroviruses.

Most enterovirus infections during pregnancy cause mild or no illness in the mother. Although the available information is limited, currently there is no clear evidence that maternal enteroviral infection causes adverse outcomes of pregnancy such as abortion, stillbirth, or congenital defects. However, mothers infected shortly before delivery may pass the virus to the newborn. Babies born to mothers who have symptoms of enteroviral illness around the time of delivery are more likely to be infected. Most newborns infected with an enterovirus have mild illness, but, in rare cases, they may develop an overwhelming infection of many organs, including liver and heart, and die from the infection. The risk of this severe illness in newborns is higher during the first two weeks of life.

Strict adherence to generally recommended good hygienic practices by the pregnant woman (see "Can HFMD be prevented?" below) may help to decrease the risk of infection during pregnancy and around the time of delivery.

When and where does HFMD occur?

Individual cases and outbreaks of HFMD occur worldwide, more frequently in summer and early autumn. In the recent past, major outbreaks of HFMD attributable to enterovirus 71 have been reported in some South East Asian countries (Malaysia, 1997; Taiwan, 1998).

How is HFMD diagnosed?

HFMD is one of many infections that result in mouth sores. Another common cause is oral herpesvirus infection, which produces an inflammation of the mouth and gums (sometimes called stomatitis). Usually, the physician can distinguish between HFMD and other causes of mouth sores based on the age of the patient, the pattern of symptoms reported by the patient or parent, and the appearance of the rash and sores on examination. A throat swab or stool specimen may be sent to a laboratory to determine which enterovirus caused the illness. Since the testing often takes 2 to 4 weeks to obtain a final answer, the physician usually does not order these tests.

How is HFMD treated?

No specific treatment is available for this or other enterovirus infections. Symptomatic treatment is given to provide relief from fever, aches, or pain from the mouth ulcers.

Can HFMD be prevented?

Specific prevention for HFMD or other non-polio enterovirus infections is not available, but the risk of infection can be lowered by good hygienic practices. Preventive measures include frequent handwashing, especially after diaper changes (see "Handwashing" in: An Ounce of Prevention: Keeps the Germs Away), cleaning of contaminated surfaces and soiled items first with soap and water, and then disinfecting them by diluted solution of chlorine-containing bleach (made by mixing approximately ¼ cup of bleach with 1 gallon of water. (See more about cleaning and disinfecting in general in CDC's Prevention Resources). Avoidance of close contact (kissing, hugging, sharing utensils, etc.) with children with HFMD may also help to reduce of the risk of infection to caregivers.

HMFD in the childcare setting

HFMD outbreaks in child care facilities occur most often in the summer and fall months, and usually coincide with an increased number of cases in the community.

CDC has no specific recommendations regarding the exclusion of children with HFMD from child care programs, schools, or other group settings. Children are often excluded from group settings during the first few days of the illness, which may reduce the spread of infection, but will not completely interrupt it. Exclusion of ill persons may not prevent additional cases since the virus may be excreted for weeks after the symptoms have disappeared. Also, some persons excreting the virus, including most adults, may have no symptoms. Some benefit may be gained, however, by excluding children who have blisters in their mouths and drool or who have weeping lesions on their hands.

If an outbreak occurs in the child care setting:

Make sure that all children and adults use good handwashing technique, especially after diaper changes.

Thoroughly wash and disinfect contaminated items and surfaces using diluted solution of chlorine-containing bleach.

See the section “Can HFMD be prevented?” to learn more about hygienic practices which may be helpful in preventing HFMD transmission.

2007-04-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

Have been really really busy man!!! monday admitted Darius to KKH for VEEG...to sad didnt want to take his pics...so poor thing. lucky gt insurance coverage...stayed in a 1 bedder. must say KKH kinda of bias towards paying class and subsidized patients. lucky is only 1 night. cant beleive i am so capable, took a cab and brought him to KKH hospital MYSELF. after they sedated darius, i went to proceed to get him aadmitted. so fed up with the staff kept offering me B1 ward when i said i requested for 1 bedder!! how can i stay in a 4 bedder with a baby..he will be noisy man!! true enough darius diSturb some of the kids there and they finally gave me a 1 bedder!! happi sia!! eh but no FREE UPGRADE...MUST PAY OK!! :p den sister came along. veri thankful gt her around....she stayed for thE nite and help me throughout. even ferried us home. thanks gal!! this the 2nd time. the first time was when i had kidney infection. she is always around when i needed help most. this is soo true" only true kinship will help u when u are down and out" very happy to have u as my sister ALVINA!!

OK AS REQUESTED

HEY DARREL LOOKS ALOT LIKE MANY WOMEN....HAHAHA

gerald has a boyish face though...hehee

its weekends tml and exactly a week till i start my new job...here's some of my current work place photos for viewing pleasure and my sweet memories.....

Doesnt this resemble the stock exchange???? brokers????

What is darius lookin at???????

2007-04-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

my top choice for a pre-school.....

not as ex as eton schoolhouse...will consider. 2 bros from tat sch though......

2007-04-20T11:46:00.000+08:00

Uploaded using K800i ...i rescaled the size of the pics....u decide :)

mELBOURNE
Crown casino...Good if u have 10000 bucks to gamble and be treated like a king at the maghony room. u lose they offer u room, food...anything u wan u get!! wad a price to pay for being a LOSER.

saw this drying beef in a restaurant located in Crown.......funny though

I rented this toy for my precious....too ex to buy and space consuming...so i decied on rental!!! mommy gonna change toy for u when u feel bored!!! :P

2007-04-18T14:28:00.000+08:00

DEDICATED TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!!

2007-04-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

hilarious...LOL

http://www.myheritage.com

2007-04-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

2007-04-18T13:57:00.000+08:00

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2007-04-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

today's topic maid prob....maid are a hell lotsa probs. my advice to all "NEVER TO HIRE ONE UNLESS REALLY NECESSARY"

the old folks at home will do a better job den although "we" may think they are old fashioned. they are definately the best choice den MAIDS.

Fillopinos will soon get a minimum wage of US$400(S$600) if the phillipines proposed plans come true. thats way way too high. i got mine at 360 previously. so wad if they can speak english, so wad if they are cleaner, so wad if they are presentable. let me tell u their story......yes english veri good, also veri good to argue. can refuse somethin u ask her to do. yes very clean, good hygeine....each bath takes at least 30 min....toilets full of skincare products. listen to this: her range of skincare products longer mine...i onli have cleanser, moisturiser. they have everything, cosmetics, nail polish...mask....etc. presentable...yes cool long hair. with all the beautiful clips. sexy clothings sure presentble. haven heard of ugly ducklings will always look nice with some colours???

i tolerated mine for nearly 5 months. she's too smart...her duties are to look after my baby and my hse work onli on saturdays. 5 days a week she's at my in law place. yes she has no obligations to clean their house but when my baby is sleepin dont u think youbshould HELP? she chooose to sit on the sofa read magazines and newspaper. good life huh!!
my in law cooks dinner but she refuses to wash up. wad kinda maid is this? baby sitter? hey i dun need 1..the onli hse work she does is on saturdays.
when hubbi is on leave and i need to go to work as usual...guess wad she's still in bed at 7.50am. surprising...yesssy!!!!!!! WTH. i decided to wake her up one day when i decided i cannot tolerate such nonsense. i told her off "hey, i am ur boss her but i have a boss outside" "i slog to support u, dun u think u should be workin when i am wakin so damn early to support u?"
and hello she does not Look after my son at night. we are the ones once we return from home. after 8pm teh latest she has no contact even with my son. so that means she is bloody free from say 9pm-6am..she chats on her HP each nite!!!

ok i sent this lady bac and i got another wan

abt this one..INDONESIANS.
yea they ARE NOT AS CLEAN. i must say. she stinks...yikesss...i was sniffing around my hse 3 days after she arrived...it stinked especially in the kitchen. i finally found the cause of it her FOOT!!! #@$% never mind....she onli has a shampoo, no body soap???? urgh....i quickly went to buy the followin for her.....body foam, facial wash,deodorant, powder.
everythign also yes..but i can tell u she dun know wad i mean. i once told her not to throw away the milk powder in the canister..but she did!!! is this call understand? haiz...ok den coming thru a door....y does she need to rush? be it the lift, shopping doors, escalaters, ny hse door...she always rushes in together with u....OMG..hey the door is onli good for 1!!!

till today my house stinks cause of her feet. i need to religiously spray foot spray on her slippers to prevent it...its soooo tiring to care for another BABY. i need to tell her so mani times on how to do things, the mentality is just not there. ok another scenario.....she hand washes her clothes, hand wringed her clothes, common sense:drip dry in the toilet right? make a guess wad she did....drip dry in my KITCHEN. furious....

but too add this is a milder tiger. withnin control accept for the certain glitches....

conclusion: NEVER GET A MAID UNLESS REALLY NECESSARY!!! GETTING 1 MAID IS LIKE STRIKING 4D/TOTO, UNLESS U REALLY VERI "HENG" DEN GO AHEAD!!!!

2007-04-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

today is ben & jerry's free cone day. 5 flavours to choose from. waiting time at vivo city : 15 mins

quite good for free food...hehe

2007-04-16T16:27:00.000+08:00

updates.......
spend a freaking sum on a KING size bed.....arriving this saturday. cant wait. darius has learnt to sleep through the nite and we are relieved. seeing him growing each day is a joy. went dadi place last fri....got lotsa loots!!!!!!!!! hee hee there is the addidog....cutez huh

i will be leaving my present job in approx 3 weeks time......sad though...but the grass is greener on the other side......

ciaoz

2007-03-27T12:45:00.000+08:00

now am blogging from melbourne. arrived in the land of no worries on sat the 24th of mar. the weather here is kinda crazy blowing hot and cold. wtf.....the forst 2 days freezing cold. bathe also scared. den afternoons hot like nobody business. 1 thing good abt the sun here is that you duhn sweat.

visited the city, chinatown, box hill, springvale, the pines and most imptly queen victoria market. saw man making candy bought time, nicey and colourful. blew a 100 bucks on souveniours. wana keep them as rememberance. bought lotsa tim tam and starburst. they are my favourites.!!!!!!!!!!!!bought toys and clothes for darius...missin him loads

the time here is 2 hours ahead instead of the 3 since the daylight saving is over. now is autumn.....dad's hse big, at night i dun dare to sleep on all the lights. haha dad's so good, always on my bed heater, so whenever i jump into bed at night its always warm and cosy. too bad singapore no cold weather, or else use heater under the bed. imagine the warmth!! cool.....

oh ya....on friday when i return have got a impt task to do.....this will prob change my future, not only $$ but experience. also the new maid ika is arriving. omg...lotsa things to do when i am bac. ......

okey dokey, c ya guys, mike!!!

signing off from the land of no worries.....delfina!!

*c my other blog delfinata.wordpress.com for some gossips abt some bitch, password on my MSN

2007-03-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last posted. been realli busi.............m leaving for melbourne in 2 weeks leaving my bb and hubbi. sobz sobz but i got stuff i need to do le. guess wad no flight soming back to singapore. i am on WAIT list. just booked cruise for june holidays with friends and relatives. kinda cheap in fact cheap. but the catch her u gotta book before 28th mar. so I DID and we are off to cruise in june. the most asked questioned when booking was " is there casino?" haha sure have. didnt expect relative s to join too cause initial plan was with frens.
i reali cant stand some act cute people. especially when they talk. already so old still talk like so childish can!!! yikes my hair standing. again its cold war back at MIL place with u know who. i think is a mth alr i haven talked to them.proud assess...my other blog for gossips is at www.delfinata.wordpress.com

c u guys there!!!!!

melbourne melbourne here i come!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

discovered some unwanted people are blog snooping.........goin to migrate certain posts which will be password protected. will be posting some interesting stuffs...kepp a look out for my new post. my password will be refeclted on my MSN. since my MSN contacts are my friends......they will be able to c the juicy news. its so restrictive to blog abt some things when some unwanted people come look look den gossip...........keep u folks updated nxt week. ta ta

2007-02-07T15:23:00.000+08:00

been reali busi. last week had R&R at hyatt hotel. straits kitchen. $38++ each person. had local cuisine. every 4 months i always look forward to R&R. Half day and free food..bought loots ranging from cookies, dried stuffs and abalone. spent my bonus on CNY goodies. bad thing when bonus payouts is new CNY. haha

work:
there was this sucker in my office who has no professionalism. told him report delayed due to IT gave me lotsa craps bout needing the report. dat he would have to rush to review. ya then...my side also affected wad, i also have to rush. chey as if onli his side affected. my side more parts and more $$ involved. stupid ass. escalated me and had some quarrel in the mail. how can his wife live with such a quarrelsome man? heard he is a type of person who must always win. caanot lose and will argue till his right although he is wrong. he is a big big ass.

family:
as usual la who else can show me black faces? like i owe thne my life. but thank god i have gotten used to it. and it least bother me. i am even feeling even happier whne i c them irritated by me. hahaha. cannot understand people like them. talk behind my back and even painted a ugly pic to someone else. this person sure nt paiseh, the whole time cooking up the big story yet can use my name to it. though she is behaving this way, u think i care? my consience is clear, i can sleep each nite in peace and nothing to worry/. yet this person have to worry abt so much things, like how to cover her backside, how to make others hate me, how to make others like her more. dont feel tired ar. realli la dman funni this kind of people. so free talk behind my back. never did i expect people so free periodically talk bad abt me. who wan fight with u la. get a life man. i gt everything i wan in the world and i work to support myself and family. i am living fine. so such low down people dun get in my way. got guts come tell me off. jus beware of retribution! u know wad u said. retribution is slow but just. may not happen immediate when i so much wanted it but i am sure they wil get their deserts. bunch of unhappy people. all i pity is the man. i knew hin when i was like 17? he was the kind of man with so much ambition and ideals. yet now i c a wishy washy person, not even clear of wad he wan. tot he was matured but time has shown he is not. but well y should he choose to beleive me when a actor is beside him? good luck man!

oh ya did i say i gt an icrement? jumping with joy. cheers to better prospects in the coming yr again. STRIVE for my goals!!!!
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2007-01-29T09:02:00.000+08:00

woots...its a brand new week. last week was a rather happy week for me though...was sick over the weekneds and had to sleep in the living room so my poor darius wont fall ill. i have jus discovered people who r jealous will never be happy and will always be bothered by how people think and react. i have got everthing in the world i can ask for so y should i get angry with people who just feel pure jealousy. last week something happened but i was the least bothered. io no longer feel upset or angry. y should i? i just feel veri sorry for someone whom i should be callin bro. i feel he has done alot for his family aready yet his family isnt veri happy with him. just because he doesnt get up to feed the kid? hey man u 2 can sleep like logs while 2 poor old people have to look after and get up at nite? isnt tat a call for being more thoughful of ur actions? or rather ungrateful??? anyways i am in no position to commet but if u r unhappy ant the way ur life is and tat ur hubbi cant do certain things, den ask urself wad u can do? u need people to help u look after ur precious cause u cant handle in ur own. u can sleep in peace except on weekends. if 2 days of scarifcie also is too much den those old people should be complaining, accept tat u r a parent!
cant understand also y some people wan to be parents but cant accept the agony and pain tat come along with it. everything comes with a price to pay for. if u wana have keds bear in mind its a lifetime commitment. not a toy for fun den when bored u can chuck it in the storeroom. women today r so fragile. my grandmother used to tell me how pregnant women worked in farms, carried bricks. today's century women r too pampared. i totally agree. get a life man!
hey i am wonderign if i should scarifce meat on certain days of the month? but i am afraid after making this commitment i cant keep to it, den it will be a shame. hmmmm...need some careful consideration.

2007-01-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

sat went out with ms fenhui......because of her i became vegetarian, had lunch at maio yi. had mock roasted suckling pi, mushroom & brocoli, toufu and mock curry fish head. den headed to west mall to sign up for MIO plan. the quese was damn freakin long. waited 2hr plus....
sunday brought darius for class first time c him sooo happy. he kept laughing throughout the session and he was soo tired tat he fell asleep adfter tat. at nite anna came over for some tcss. had macdonalds....there goes my diet plan!!
the class for darius i signed up for a mth....this kinda of class for infants helps in bonding and emotional intelligence. boys brain are nt the same as gals. so must enhance their brain activity level...hee had an enjoyable weekend though.

2007-01-12T13:46:00.001+08:00

today eat super dog....with mr C ...MR E ...and ms V at vivo city.
oh ya did i say MR C is a friend recommeded by me to work in the same team as me? he's a rather funni guy. make my hetci job a bright obe with friends like him. last nite i was flipping some albums and i saw miss E. haven been talking to her for a yr? chat with her on MSN....wa her updates as good as my updates. cool! dunno wad happen dat caused the rift between us. was it the sill pregnanyc hormones? or? its a boring friday though at work. something wrong with IT source file dat this mth report comes out so damn short of parts. if i were to publish this, finance would come asking alot alot of questions.
it has been rainin since yesterdae, sill rain dat caused the floods durng dec. oh ya passed a book to miss _. its my fav book during pregnancy. i used to flip the pages everynite and hope each mth pass by quickly.
talking abt my pregnancy during that 37 weeks, so many things happened. first 3 months was hell boy. kept throwing up, so blardy sleepy that i slept at 8 every nite after back from work. even at work i skipped my lunch to dooze at cyber hut for an hr. den late afternoon nap at the toilet. lunch previoulsy for me included goin to habourfront, distri park etc. but during that initial period i stayed in. i even gave up a another job just to make sure i dun have stress. i was too tired to think.i hated funni smells even my own perfume. den 1 nite my stomach became obvious at 4 mths....woke up and discovered there's a visible bump. that 2nd trimester was the best., i fel baby moved like popcorns.den gradually came stretching wher ei could c my own stomach out of shape..slowly i balloned. started having leg cramps...den at 30 weeks rashes came. that was the worst period i ever had. rashes on my tummy. its known as pregnancy rash. its so blardy itchy dat needed steriods cream to ease that itch...because i wasnt sure if it was safe i contemplated using it. it lasted for 3 whole weeks. i finally gave in in the 2nd week of suffering. my rashes was so bad that my whole stomach was red in patches and everynite i did nt sleep just to put ice on my tummy. i came to work with eye bags. all my collegues pitied me. i read on the internet that its an allergy to male hormones from baby. i also attended antenatal lessons which i enjoyed veri much and found it fulfilling & enriching. den came my delivery. it was bad bad bad. i had an enduced labour. caused at 37 weeks my routine checkup, did a CTG den doc felt baby heart rate was nt favourable and advised me to induced. i checked into labour ward on mon 9/18 3pm with a pill inserted to dilate the cervix. i was relaxing till i felt contractions at 6pm..it became unbearabe at 11pm dat i kept pressing the bell to ask the nurses for epidural but they said cant, i had to wait till 2cm dilate... i was like cursing and swearing. i was not even dilating. the worst part baby wasnt even engaged. it was high up in my tummy. at 4am the next morning at 2cm dilate doc came broke the water bag....it slowly begin to dilate at 1cm per hr...at full dilateion at noon i was not even able to push baby cause he was still up there...i had to wait till baby decided to travel down. the pain was unbearable even with epidural cause baby is nt enagaged,. the logic of epidural is that it works waist down for it to be a painless delivery. but in my case totally OUT....
the midwife kept syaing "bear with it, the baby will slowly come down". i was crying my heart out. at 6pm 9/19 it was time for baby to come......and he did in an hour time. the best part of pregnancy i feel is the check up...from once a month, it slowly became fornightly den weekly during the last 1 month. i always anticipated seeing baby!
anyway to all pregnant mummies, enjoy dat baby growing in u. its tough but a rewarding one!

2007-01-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

today eat super dog....with mr C ...MR E ...and ms V at vivo city.
oh ya did i say MR C is a friend recommeded by me to work in the same team as me? he's a rather funni guy. make my hetci job a bright obe with friends like him. last nite i was flipping some albums and i saw miss E. haven been talking to her for a yr? chat with her on MSN....wa her updates as good as my updates. cool! dunno wad happen dat caused the rift between us. was it the sill pregnanyc hormones? or? its a boring friday though at work. something wrong with IT source file dat this mth report comes out so damn short of part. if i were to publish this, finance would come asking alot alot of questions.
it has been rainin since yesterdae, sill rain dat caused the floods durng dec. oh ya passed a book to miss _. its my fav book during pregnancy. i used to flip the pages everynite and hope each mth pass by quickly.
talking abt my pregnancy during that 37 weeks, so many things happened. first 3 months was hell boy. kept throwing up, so blardy sleepy that i slept at 8 every nite after back from work. even at work i skipped my lunch to dooze at cyber hut for an hr. den late afternoon nap at the toilet. lunch previoulsy for me included goin to habourfront, distri park etc. but during that initial period i stayed in. i even gave up a another job just to make sure i dun have stress. i was too tired to think.i hated funni smells even my own perfume. den 1 nite my stomach became obvious at 4 mths....woke up and discovered there's a visible bump. that 2nd trimester was the best., i fel baby moved like popcorns.den gradually came stretching wher ei could c my own stomach out of shape..slowly i balloned. started having leg cramps...den at 30 weeks rashes came. that was the worst period i ever had. rashes on my tummy. its known as pregnancy rash. its so blardy itchy dat needed steriods cream to ease that itch...because i wasnt sure if it was safe i contemplated using it. it lasted for 3 whole weeks. i finally gave in in the 2nd week of suffering. my rashes was so bad that my whole stomach was red in patches and everynite i did nt sleep just to put ice on my tummy. i read on the internet that its an allergy to male hormones from baby. i also attended antenatal lessons which i enjoyed veri much and found it fulfilling & enriching. den came my delivery. it was bad bad bad. i had an enduced labour. caused at 37 weeks my routine checkup, did a CTG den doc felt baby heart rate was nt favourable and advised me to induced. i checked into labour ward on mon 9/18 3pm with a pill inserted to dilate the cervix. i was relaxing till i felt contractions at 6pm..it became unbearabe at 11pm dat i kept pressing the bell to ask the nurses for epidural but they said cant, i had to wait till 2cm dilate... i was like cursing and swearing. i was not even dilating. the worst part baby wasnt even engaged. it was high up in my tummy. at 4am the next morning at 2cm dilate doc came broke the water bag....it slowly begin to dilate at 1cm per hr...at full dilateion at noon i was not even able to push baby cause he was still up there...i had to wait till baby decided to travel down. the pain was inbearable even with epidural cause baby is nt enagaged,. the logic of epidural is that it works waist down for it to be a painless delivery. but in my case totally OUT....
the midwife kept syaing "bear with it, the baby will slowly come down". i was crying my heart out. at 6pm 9/19 it was time for baby to come......and he did in an hour time. the best part of pregnancy i feel is the check up...from once a month, it slowly became fornightly den weekly during the last 1 month. i always anticipated seeing baby!
anyway to all pregnant mummies, enjoy dat baby growing in u. its tough but a rewarding one!

2007-01-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

i have never been so freaking busi before. the whole day i am like stuck using speadsheet. keep entering fig till i feel so dizzy....i am so tired. i need so power sleep to refresh. cannnot imagine how i am goin to tahan till my collegue returns from her maternity leave. tiredzzzzzzzzz.
i am craving for ice cream..been wanting to eat bt didnt get the chance think i should go eat during the weekends. i got headache suddenly...y huh!! wa lao.....

2007-01-07T14:44:00.001+08:00

new skin for 2007!!!!!! my collegue has given birth & i will b backin her up for the nxt 3 mths. SHAG. darius now can laugh so loud whenever i tickle him...so cutez! his jabs damn ex sia 400 plus. i let him take the peunomocol jab(dunno the correct spelling) but tat is the jab now advertising on tv...where the girl asks her mother y her brother cant walk or talk. the rota virus and the compulsory 6 in 1...sounds like a lot for a baby. but surprsingly, darius doesnt have fever and i am so glad. i rather let him be protected earlier rather than wait...ya older dun need so many doses of the peunomocol vaccine.but defeat the purpose ma. smaller den more susceptible to diseases...also now he jab he does nt cry wait til older!! he will be grabbing us and yelling "no i dun wan, pain!" den ar my heart will pain. now he jab he just yell for less than 2 mins den stop can laugh alr...
i got my multi sim already..free le for regulars. but 1 of our friend gt cheated!! the M1 shop at IMM, charged him for the registration when he applied last tue. the promotion for regulars is on from 1st jan to 31 jan...but he was not told of the promo and charged...!! now easier for me switch between my N72 & 6288...

2006-12-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

its the annual shutdown of the company and i am shakin my legs at hme with my dear sonny boi. hmm my dear boi goes to my MIL place on the morning and i bring him back at nite. mani people ask me this "difficult?" i feel this word is one own feeling rather. u never tried how u know? its a cooperation between a couple and a determination. i remembered once it was pouring....mil suggested i leave darius there for the nite. i contemplated. i am glad i did bring him home. i wan to have tat bond with him. babies grow up veri fast. mths fly by so quickly tat soon in time to come he wil be runnin around. its a comfort not to be disturb by baby at nite if he is left in ur in law place. but wad do u and the baby stand to gain? nothing. u in fact lose the bond. his habits u wont know at all. half a day we r at work and den we dun even sleep with our child and den when morning comes, the first thing the baby c is not u. how sad is tat!!!!!
i am reali veri glad i perservered. evry nite after we return i will play with him. his laughter warms my heart. in the monring i kiss him goodbye and i hope the day ends quickly so i can get to c him again. i thank god and my husband!!!

2006-12-13T13:14:00.000+08:00

a veri funni post i received in my email, wonder how mani pple can view this in chinese..but happy reading!!!

媳婦寫給婆婆的一封信,超勁爆的衝擊，你敢寄嗎？

我一直在想，你對我到底有什麼意義？
你只不過是我丈夫的母親，在結婚之前，你在我的生命中根本沒有任何意義。
我的生命來自我的父母，今天的學歷、能力、教養、待人處世之道理，都是來自我父母的承傳，沒有任何一分一毫是由你來貢獻。
所以我不懂，為何一結婚之後，我活了二十多年的歲月全部必須歸零，然後變成所謂「你家」的人，又變成你家「最小」的人。說「最小」是因為我在「你家」的地位始終比我今年才2歲的兒子小。說真的，我心理很不平衡。
我的父母養育了我二十多年，而你是撿他們辛苦二十多年的結晶，根本來說你是不勞而獲、撿現成的。
所以我在幫你做事情時，你得感謝我的父母以及我的勞力付出。
如果你不感激那就算，你不應該還對我有極大的意見，對我做的事情總是拿著放大鏡來挑剔------雞蛋裡面挑骨頭。這簡直是得了便宜還賣乖。
我白天有自己的工作，經濟一向獨立，所以我根本不必依靠你的兒子，也還沒有靠過你兒子的薪水過活過。
而且我今天有謀生的能力，是仰賴我父母給我的教育，以及我自己的不斷學習成長的能力。
所以我不能忍受我賺錢的好像理所當然必須貢獻給「你家」，然後我花我自己賺的錢，都還要看看你的臉色，豈有此理！
我又沒欠你，也不需要你養，更沒拿過你一毛錢，我可以尊重你的意見，但是不能讓你做主。所以我現在要跟你開誠佈公的講清楚說明白：電費是我在支付，所以酷暑的炎夏我開冷氣睡覺你不准有意見，隔天要上班的是我，睡眠品質對我而言很重要。
還有「佛要金裝、人要衣裝」我要買幾套衣服、鞋子都是我的事情，請你一定要記住，這些都是我自己賺的錢。花錢的準則上面我自己有分寸，你要管就去管你兒子的錢，我用我能力勞力賺去的錢，實在不想還要看你的臉色。
而且，你不要老是以為你的兒子多棒，如果沒有我也出去工作，你以為你去年可以去大陸旅遊二星期嗎？哪來的錢？
我常常在想，你對我其實真的沒有任何意義，如果你對我有任何形式上的意義，你只不過是我丈夫的母親，你所有的恩情功勞都在他身上，要回報你的也是他，相同的能叫我回報的也只有我的父母親，如果今天我的父母也這樣挑剔你的兒子，你心理又會舒服嗎？而你的兒子有能達到他們多少的要求？
所以~~以後你想吃水果，請叫你兒子切給你吃，因為這才是他應該做的。衣服也請你兒子洗，畢竟你也幫他洗了二十幾年的衣服(我連一雙襪子都沒有麻煩過你)。
要去看醫生，請他提早下班帶你去...我不想老是被扣全勤的費用，而且我感冒時你還會對我冷言冷語笑我身體差，因此你生病時我沒有辦法提起太多的同理心。
言而總之，他孝順你是應該的，而我，要把我的孝心回饋給生我育我的父母親。如果要我幫你做，那麼你至少得閉上那張挑剔的嘴巴，然後心存感激，因為我沒有欠你！幫你做，是因為看在你是我丈夫的母親份上，僅僅是這樣而已，要不是他是我丈夫，你以為你會有這個榮幸嗎？
而且，你也得多看看新聞，現在都已經是「家務勞給」的年代，你既然沒有支付我薪水，我幫你做你就要偷笑了！
最後，我寫這封信給你，你一定會覺得我大逆不道，但是人與人之間是互相尊重的，我對你便是以這樣的基礎去相處，如果你不能夠同樣尊重我的感受，就算我會看在你的長輩的份上退讓幾分，但是我還是要把底限說清楚。
你會說「做人的媳婦要知道理」，但是我要在這邊反駁你~~
我從來就不是你養大的，我更沒有欠你，而對你我已經發揮最大的容忍與尊重，其他需要學習的地方是在你這邊。
婆婆，尊重別人也尊重你自己

2006-12-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

wa lau finally bac at work...hmm veri veri busi. my collegue is goin on maternity leave and boss decided tat i take over her work so as to minmize disruption....i learn things fast...ya but wad 2 weeks onli. gosh!!!!!!!
i shifted my desk i in office today cause the space is for another dept person...now i am in the front..cannot sleep alr lo....
via....u wan to buy pampers? dun need la....he now learn potty training...i miss my baby when i am at work....how? can i be a SAHM?

2006-11-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

fenhui....wad happen to ur tag sia....aniwae stole some time from my sleep just to tell u 'ur nt forgotten'
its a fact i have been busy with my darius but i will soon catch up with ya
more gossips on the wae...
oh ya save $$ hor ...the Bi**h son bdae coming hor,,,k c when free i msg ya..take carez!!!!!!!!!!
p.s: send my regards to u mum....

my most recent baby photo for u:

2006-10-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

the onli time i have to myself is noon time. when bb takes his nap. other den that i am super duper busi. but some people like my mother cant understand man!! keep callin me to call this and that person. not i dun wan but i dun even have time to shit....haiz..i need some time alone. after waking up for night feeds right till morning, i need to bathe baby and settle him to sleep that is alr 2 pm. i cant even bathe and she keeps calling me. can tshe like blardy understand i am busi. if so easi den come take over my position c whether u gt time. ass man. i am alr so tired yet i must do stupid thing. den say i ungrateful bla bla.
PIG man its not that its just that i am REALI veri busi. i got 1 pair of hands and i a baby needs attention how am i suppose to ever call them up.

haiz

2006-10-03T15:13:00.001+08:00

my boi finally came to he world on 19 sept. 2 weeks earlier.....actuali had my check up on 18 sept den was told by doc dat bb heart rate not so favourable so was asked to induce instead of waitin. for fear he might be sick....den i went back to MAH at 3pm for induction. i stayed in labour ward till 19 sept 8 plus....gosh
labour sucked big time!!!

when i saw my bb i was lost for a moment. that feeling is so funni. it seems i had grown so mani yr older.questions poopped in my mind. was i ready???
2 weeks have passed since the birth of my son and i am tryin to cope. especially all alone.... its tough but i am glad hubbi's here. though he needs to work he wakes up for all the nite feeds while i sleep. indeed i am touched, whenever i c him carry baby my heart melts. i feel so inferior all of a sudden....hubbi is so much patient with him and gives him the best care he can provide. even sacrificing his sleep. i can c he loves him alot. i am truly touched and appreciative!!!

oh ya my baby boi name is DARIUS!!!!!!!!!!!

TILL NXT TIME WHEN I AM FREE..BB GONA WAKE UP FOR HIS FEED.
** I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL THOSE WHO VISITED ME IN HOSPITAL AND THOSE WHO CAME OVER TO C MY SON**

ALSO TO MY SISTER FOR HER WONDERFUL GIFTS!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-03T15:13:00.000+08:00

2006-09-15T09:08:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin....busi with work....meetings. finally its end of the week. i reali look for forward to each ending day. never once in my life i hope for time to pass faster.
sHIT thinkin abt mon makes me pissed. if i still have not given birth, i would have to back my collegue up who is goin on a holiday. the thing now here is not backing her up is that PLAN b person sucks. PLan a will that i will be the back up till the next following monday if i have not given birth. PLan b is for 2 people to back the 6 days equally. but F*** a senior tell me she dun wan cause she might have lotsa order. wad the hell man. that is plan bull shit. cause i did those countries way before she returned from her long medcal leave. den when i switched to do reporting the work was distributed to her. i jolly well know how much work is therr...she is just dman plain lazy. now all my collegues hope i deliver on monday or over the weekend so i dun even have to bac at all and my 3 mths start from den.
so BABY r u coming out soon??????? :P

2006-09-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went for check up and a shock i got.....the clinic was EMPTY...i tot wad happen. oh a water pipe burst in mount a and it got into my doc clinic. so we had to do normal regostration, urine and weight den brough to another area for check up...
i must say it was pretty well handled despite the disaster.
there was a few people doin valuation for damages, guess the contractor goin to pay lotsa money for the scanning machines and other damages. imgaine wate pipe burst until water above ankle level. so that must be alot of water cause mount a level 2 was flooded.

i will finally get to c my gynae weekly till baby decides to pop out..cant wait!! oh ya i am hooked on sukudo...nice nice. kept playing the puzzles from sunday night so damn interesting. wrecking my brains keeping them alive...hahaha

2006-09-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVINA!!!!

SEPT 8 was the day my sister was born. 11 months apart from me...a addition to my life. sisterhood for me comprised of quarrels, fights, bed talks, the good times!!! thinks that's normal right??? i love her but i dun know how to tell her? heez so mushy. but its true!! i swear man!!

though i used to fight it our with her or have diagreements but i still think abt her and pray for her. i worry abt her too.....aniwae as long as my siblings get a job, is safe...i am happy!!

so dedicated to my dearest sister.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY! MAY u stay happy and healthy always!

cool man paul 2hill is out of the competition. i am so happy. i was hoping so hard he would be out. he cant sing, got some irritating style can last till top 4 already good liao la. gurmit said "paul i have something to say, your idol journey ends tonight"....i went hooo hooo woots!!!! ken said "i must admit vocally u r the weakest but u have made a lasting impression" daniel ong and gurmit like also so sad. but boy, he reali sucks big time la.....
he sing already out of tune, he imitate can la but i tot idol is like singing in ur own style? he definately dun have!!

i like JONATHAN!!

2006-09-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

freaking scary yesterdae during lunch something happened......i myself dun even know wads that. sis, mum and i were at great world having lunch. thereafter they went to THAT CD shop. some how felt weird so decided to sit down at the bench outside the shop. suddenly, i felt just so uncomfortable. sis said i turned white.....decided to go c gynae just in case was in labour. phew!!! it wasnt.....i just had BRAXTON HICKS contractions. i did a CTG and showed contractions but not regular and no dilation...so home i went. i think i felt it so badly cause i was prob too full and the stomach was just so tight dat it nearly exploded.
now i have come to realise the best part of pregnancy is in 2nd trimester, where ur belly is small. u dun feel clumsy, nor fat not tired. now...i feel like SHIT AR!!!!
i am like freaking heavy nearly 60kg...omg!!!!!!
i just feel like a pig. cant sleep yet so tired.
hubby nearly punched my stomach last nite cause he had a night mare. some mths back there was another time which hit me too. this time was even more pain. WTF..... on my BR**** Le. so damn pain. hurtzzz....somehow i decide to lie on my back to sleep so it narrowly missed my tummy...if not i would be in hospital now if i was in the upright position i usually was, PHEW. better no more ya.....freaking scary sia!!!

2006-09-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

sis birthday is comin but kinda sad she needs to work. den we cant meet her. remember last yr, on her birthday, we had a mini celebration at orchid country club. i still remember her birthday cake was the pandan kaya cake from bengawan solo. mummy so sad that she cant meet sis up.....boo hoo....

a birthday might be insignificant to oneself. but its truly a joy to help those u love or treasure celebrate their birthday. especially for parents, it marks another yr in their child's life. seeing them growing older each day reminds all parents how many years fate has brought them together. each year wishing them well till their last breathe.

i never used to feel so much for my family till i became pregnant. for those yrs for me as a child didnt reali bring much good memories. living in a single parent family wasnt easy for all of us. be it financially, emotionally. that was how i became wayward. nearly ruined my whole life with a mark....a narrow escape. that was the turning point for me in my life. but the whole picture of wad FAMILY reali means onli shadowed up in my pregnancy.

i learnt that to give life to another person is not easy. from the day u conceive till the day u breathe the last, u will still be worrying for them. no matter how bad or good the child maybe its still a part of urs that u carried, that lived in ur womb for whole 10 mths feeling their first movements, hearing their first cries. imagine a small egg yolk sac became human with limbs etc moving inside u.

sometimes i think back, now in pregnancy i can bring baby wherever i go. i can protect him from all harm and keep him safe. but the moment he is borned, he will have to fight for his own life. that's wad pain me for we are unable to predict the future. hoping and prayin that with each day my child will grow up strong and well.

in same way or another despite my bad childhood, i have been blessed along the way. truly i feel blessed, thats not a lie for sure. i have every reasons to live my life now even stronger den before.......

2006-09-04T15:35:00.000+08:00

weekends just passed and i am feeling soo tiredzzzzzzzz.guess the last trimester is like that huh. veri veri soon me gonna give birth, kinda scared and excited at the same time. i am sure feelin dman clumsy.
last fri after work when to orchard with hubbi. found that i couldnt walk well. like so damn heavi. oh ya satisfied my cravings for mooncakes...yummy. snow skin . better eat now or i cant later. heez

2006-09-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

2006-09-01T15:24:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Pride: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die of malnutrition, after the Olson twins make dying of malnutrition trendy.

How Sinful Are You?

2006-09-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.
You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.
Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.
As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

2006-09-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 107

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2006-09-01T15:11:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

2006-09-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

i love everi friday cause its marks an end to every week. which tells me my baby is coming soon....though its gonna change our lives but i still hope and wan for that change. meet sis this week, think she not gonna meet us till i give birth? she is one busi woman..need an appt in advance to book her.went with her and mummy to the infant care. needed their comment and i need a whopping 1000 for deposit!!
i am fat!! i hate lookin at the mirror its gonna crack veri soon....i just discovered this yr mooncake festival is on my birthday. which means i am in confinement and no moon cakes for me??? oh my my :( *pouts thats my fav le...especially the snow skin mooncake. i need to EAT them badly. how nice ya lunar month 8 and the 15 day is on OCT 6!! woo hoo cool.....

2006-08-30T11:12:00.000+08:00

its the last few weeks man.....check up on mon, all's well. weight erm...slow a bit ba...but i am fat enough liao le...hmm. its so hard to sleep. no poistion allows me to sleep well. urgh....trouble getting some wonder sleep. and i keep dozing off at my desk after lunch. phew!!!! 3 weeks more and i will onli return to work next year 2007. gonna be a long long rest. cant wait.

2006-08-25T11:24:00.000+08:00

a week has passed. air con repaired and its so COOL now. basically i didnt do anything much. except for home, work, eat, sleep. its so hard nowadays to sleep. belly's big. side, on my back also so difficult. den i feel so damn tired in the morning. terrible but its gonna end soon....endurance.
called up the public cord bank hopin i can donate but now onli 2 private hospitals have agreed, they r working to seek approval from other private hospitals including the hospital i delivering. i hope we can get the good news before i deliver....praying!!!
our collegue son is suffering from leukemia and has to undergo chemotherapy etc. he is onli pri sch. after talking to her i feel we should donate if we not saving it for own use. cause the more people step forward to donate the bank increases it resources. den mani others out there can be saved. yes the match may be difficult but as long as there are people who will donate there is hope for the sufferers. because more cord blood means bigger resources............one good turn deserves another.

hope all those who read my blog and r deliverin to calll up and request to be donars!!!!!! mani people out there need that hope. whether can save just try.

sunday hubbi gt to go for safra run den me gonna spend my day at mummy place.boringz........
but hee monday i can c bb~~~~

2006-08-21T15:09:00.000+08:00

Years ago, a farmer owned land along the Atlantic seacoast. He constantly advertised for hired hands. Most people were reluctant to work on farms along the Atlantic. They dreaded the awful storms that raged across the Atlantic, wreaking havoc on the buildings and crops. As the farmer interviewed applicants for the job, he received a steady stream of refusals.

Finally, a short, thin man, well past middle age, approached the farmer. "Are you a good farm hand?" the farmer asked him. "Well, I can sleep when the wind blows," answered the little man.

Although puzzled by this answer, the farmer, desperate for help, Hired him. The little man worked well around the farm, busy from dawn to dusk, and the farmer felt satisfied with the man's work. Then one night the wind howled loudly in from offshore. Jumping out of bed, the farmer grabbed a lantern and rushed next door to the hired hand's sleeping quarters. He shook the little man and yelled, "Get up! A storm is coming! Tie things down before they blow away!" The little man rolled over in bed and said firmly, "No sir. I told you, I can sleep when the wind blows."

Enraged by the response, the farmer was tempted to fire him on the spot. Instead, he hurried outside to prepare for the storm. To his amazement, he discovered that all of the haystacks had been covered with tarpaulins. The cows were in the barn, the chickens were in the coops, and the doors were barred. The shutters were tightly secured. Everything was tied down.

Nothing could blow away. The farmer then understood what his hired hand meant, so he returned to his bed to also sleep while the wind blew.

MORAL OF THE STORY
When you're prepared, spiritually, mentally, and physically, you have nothing to fear. Can you sleep when the wind blows through your life? The hired hand in the story was able to sleep because he had secured the farm against the storm. We secure ourselves against the storms of life by grounding ourselves in the Word of God. We don't need to understand, we just need to hold His hand to have peace in the middle of storms.

2006-08-21T10:41:00.000+08:00

fri i did something i would normally/usually never do....i shouted on the mrt. arse. i met an uncle, has a crook face though. the train was packed after work on fri and i was standing at the entrance of the train. at dunno which stop the arse hole man boarded and wanted to squeeze in the dman packed train. btw he was alr in the cabin he just wanted to move to where there was seats.
"move away, dun block the way, dun stand here" he shouted
i was furious.
"cant u c people dun let me in" i shouted
suddenly the whole train gave way to let me in and i was blushing red..that man reali an arse, i with a big stomach den he wan to squeeze. ass den 2 young men offered their seats to me.

i reali sometimes hate sinagporeans attitude. the sunday papers was right. talking about litter bugs at HDB. there is always a green rubbish bin near the letter boxes yet the area surroundin the letter boxes are always filled with papers. wad the hell? r they kinda of blind? yet when they c filthy area they know how to criticize, but never once struck them that they contributed this too at their own estates. if not for the foreign workes who sweeps the floor every morning, singapore will not be green/beautiful city. garbage city more like it. shame on us.
i wonder wad good qualities do we as singaporeans posseses? we crticize china people for their behaviour. but unknown to us. we are not better. we behave so similar to them. the onli difference is the accent and knowledge.
being pregnant truly also shows me how gracious singaporeans r when comin to giving up theri seats for elderly or those who needs them more. yet those aunties expects us youngsters to give them seats when they pregnant or old. but when they are mobile, they refused. all pretend to be sleeping. is that fair? all good turns deserves another isnt it? with such an attitude in the near future we wuld expect almost all singaporeans to be glued to their seats on train/buses cause we have been teaching youngsters to PRETEND. those aunties can shut theri eyes and pretend to sleep when nearby them are children. what kind of manners we r teaching? its reali a shame. soon singapore will be like those 3rd world countries. especially when we forsake foreign workers. without them, sinagpore willl nt be where we r today. the majority of constructions works, cleaning jobs are by them.cause singaporeans r too proud to do them.talk abt no jobs!! yet we complain abt them being filthy, dangerous etc. when 1 day the tables turn. onli then we will regret. pls sinagpore dun make our future generations suffer!!!

the IMF is coming and so mani visitors will be in singapore. yet we need to avertise and those involved have to make sure sinagpore "seems" a beautiful place, y cant we do that on our own accord? look at thailand, the people r so friendly. every place u go u r greeted. in sinagpore? a hi or good morning will create stares. haiz.........

my aircon leaked last nite, dunno wad happen. think hubbi spoilt it. he went to wash the filter den was not dry so he dry it using the haor dryer but HOT mode. gosh!! true enough it leaked. dunno how le. repai man coming to night, i pray its alright cause i am REALI damn hot. I CANT DO WITHOUR AIR CON.

i washed all baby stuff, now onli need to pack them. den pack my hospital bag. i also bought the remianing items cause john little gt 20% sale for nursery items. spent a bomb.
oh so sad antenatal lessons has ended, sobz sobz, i gonna miss her lotsa!!!!

2006-08-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

i wana finish washing baby stuff over the weekends, den i can clean the cupboard to place them in. kinda of sad sat lesson will be the last...:( i am gonna miss the trainer. she just so nice, amusing. learnt mani informative stuff from her. dun regret paying to attend. its a worthwhile experience. few mins to knock off time!!! its a friday and hubbi need work late. since i not so hungry going NTUC later to c wad i can cook for dinner. outside food sucks.

oh ya tml i gt sch tour~~ need to do some serious plannin if plan a cant den i need a maid!!!!

2006-08-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

its a boring day at work....this sat antenatal lessons will be the last lesson....den following tues is a dco talk. thereafter....no more classes....onli awaiting arrival of baby. will den have to pack labour bag, den my baby stuff..............hmmm now seems like time is running short. quite scary!!! i feel so tired, reali hard to fall asleep nowadays. too big?? heavy?? fat? anyway sleepin just sucks now. poor hubbi had to give up his pillow to me for cause i needed to prop up to sleep, imgaine i using 4 pillows & 1 bolster to sleep at night. crowded bed....

2006-08-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

back from my check up....bb now is 2.3kg. i am fatter each week man. at least 0.5 per week. feelin veri heavy nowadays. guess wad baby head is turned down. i wan actualli worrying lots that baby will be breech but talkin to him for past 2 weeks...finally on checkup day he was down. thats my Boy. feel he is my goody boy. when i had rashes talked to him, it went away. den now when i am worried he takes away my fears. amazing!!! oh ya dont know wad happen to my doc. suddenly decided to give me a 3d snapshot of my baby. cool huh. i tot wad serious thing he was goin to say suddenly he switch the machine to 3D den he told me trying to c wad the baby looks like den shook tummy cause my boi was covering his face with his hand. his face is sooo cute. can c his cheeks.....haha ...soon me goin to give birth....cant wait for that day.....anxious........

2006-08-11T10:33:00.000+08:00

today is our quarter R&R goin to suntec kushin bo for japanese buffet.....half day again. den gonna grab some T shirts running out of them man. i cant possibly wear my usual clothes just to go JP to eat ma...den hubbi shirt now all does not fit me. gosh fat alr. i am truly fat. hmm scary man...dunno even can shed that extra kilos. gotta work hard to lose it all.
mon goin for check up. hope bb is ok. my rashes r clearin up *touch wood* my boi has been a veri veri good boi. tell him dun make his mummy itchy it reali didnt itch...love him lotsa!!

2006-08-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging due to the distressin rashes. I GOT PREGNANCY RASH. kinda hate it. irritates me and disturbs my sleep.....it seems to be getting better now. except for night.....been talking to my boi telling him to relieve mummy from the itch. ITS WORKING. he is such a good boi!!!! wenta phoenix hotel for buffet with sean, MH, AH hao, rachel and of cos hubbi. so long didnt meet them think gt 1 mth ba.....reached home at 10 plus soo late. me kept dozing off the whole day.
i just discovered after getting the rashes, i love to bath. i neeed to bath mani mani times.weekends itself i think i bath more than 3 times. relieves itch man. antenatal classes was good labour seems scary to me sia. aiya actuali as long can c my precious all's worth it. yeah soon i can c my son lo.....................................anticipating... :X

2006-07-28T13:56:00.000+08:00

shucks the rashes still no improvement. down to using oatmeal baths yet no relief....urgh!!! wtf............i woke up in the middle of the night to bath le!!!! just cause i couldnt get to sleep and was scratching uncontrollably. i need HELP!!!!!!!!

no mood for anything!!! :(

2006-07-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

i am in distress!! rashes causing me to have sleepless night, endless scratching. i am like finding all ways to help..calamine, aqueos cream all dun help. shit. cant wait for appt on moday to get it checked!!

2006-07-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

sobz sobz....... :( i gt rashes all over my tummy help!!!! scratchin uncontrollably...wad the hell is happening man!!!

2006-07-25T10:37:00.000+08:00

oh ya i packed her clothes and returned.somewad felt good!! dun wana another incident like this..cant take it.

2006-07-25T10:20:00.000+08:00

was busi yesterdae at work so didnt update.....heard from cousin abt alot of things.. hmm how i just wish 1 day "SHE"will c light. dun understand wad strong poison is on her. never mind la wad can i do....she is his mum. as long as i can face my own conscience its good enough. i dun owe anybody any reasons for the things i do. as long as i feel it is the best of the well being of my family i will do it. those who truly c things from my angle will understand, those who dont will think wad i do is wrong. but too bad. i am reali TIRED.

sat i went shopping!!!! i bought my N72...hee pinkie. nice nice.....woke up damn early to do my eyebrow embrodery...den hor i was advise not to do now le. the person say "pantang". in the end headed suntec. bought my nicee phone den hubbi combed whole suntec and marina square just to find a bag. he saaw the design he wanted at wallet shop but was in black. the slaes person say no black. but hubbi was veri sure he saw someone carrying brown. so we walked to suntec again....den we decided to go royal sporting house. den somewhere on 1 of the shelves we found it. he bought it at 69 bucks...haha save 5 cents. den leg so damn tired alr...can u imagine from 11 plus walk till 5. den headed to TMC for dinner. den had ny antenatal classes. must sure say thumbs up. veri informational and enriching. was so tired after class alr nearing 10 den went home zzzzzzzzzzzz

at antenatal classes the trainer was so amusing. was talkin on the myths and facts abt confinement. i must agreee with her that not all teh things that old people say its good is best for now. cause last time things were more or less produced naturally or was not so advanced as today. like cannot bathe...singapore so hot, whereas china has different seasons. of course cant bathe la....den last time no hair dryer now have....den say drink DOM. old people say drink alr still can breastfeed but baby is drunk le....face will start turning red. its either u BF first den drink lo...

2006-07-21T10:26:00.000+08:00

can u imagine i gt blamed? some ass thought i delibrately delayed my msg. wtf? eh hello i need to work le i cant possibly be replying on the spot right? wad the hell. den said i created a prob? wad stupid prob? when in the first place the first msg went "i need the shoes this friday veri likely. so how do u want to return it? either get your husband to fetch it over or i pick it up myself." "ask ah xing? if even he also dunnno den forget it. i pick it myself. actuali yesterday was a good chance". eh fucking hell my repli was to explain y i did not return the shoe on mon ok. all i said was" like i said ah xing dun drive to work. he onli meet me at interchange. and i last min then knoe i coming. how am i suppose to bring over." is it so wrong for me to explain myself? y lend me 1 shoe veri big fuck is it? huh can sae me create prob. den dun tell monday was a good chance la.......y i cant even explain for myself just cause i was the person who borrowed the shoe? y the borrower has to take all this nonsense and let u intentionally say i puposely didnt bring over? arse holes. can u imagine the repli was this"he goes back to oick car then fetch u at interchange? i cannot be teaching u how to get the shoe to the car. i will pick it myself. pls sms me ur add". did i bloddy say i not returning? if i am that sort of person i wouldnt have returned u the clothes i am not wearing. reali cant people just talk properly? den so smart to turn the tables. sure talk like an indian.

damn bloodi pissed la. ya search ur conscience and touch ur heart and ask urself wad u meant la. be truthful. wad abt those sacastic remarks when i asked wad u think whether mum can cope 2 babies. u r just slefish and because i respected u i wanted to back out. den u poison others just to show u r so great. F off la. slefish say selfish la nobodi will say anything as long as u r truthful. but ur hypocrite ways just pissed people off. still wan respect. *pukes* wan to make noise i got whole damn list la. never mind GOD knoes whether u did say or meant anything. when u die or what so ever u r answerable. be careful hor......

pissed reali pissed, still can say my husband sure side me....ya if onli he does. to hell with those arseholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-20T11:03:00.000+08:00

wa lau....i think i gt memory loss le. few minutes ago i dont know if o took my iron pills anot. den i pop another. i cant remember whether i took it earlier. how?????? i sat quietly to reflect but i cant recall. old liao. gosh. shitz....maybe i did upped the dosage. until now also i cant remeber if i took it. i may have took it and my not!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
finally thurs i always look forward to a week's end. this means the birth of my son is getting closer each day!!

2006-07-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

fucked up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot understand my mother!!!!!!!!! why cant anybody have pity on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wa lau do i wan myself not to have money??? but i cant afford to take her in now ma...where in the fucking world am i goin to get the $$$. i need to pay for CL and other stuff. wad sitting at home means input and no output? pls la this is sinagpore le....bills still kepp coming although i am sitting at home. shit ass. FAMILY. ya shit ass!!! no consideration, no sympathy. but when things happen onli know how to blame. think my heart is too soft like a jelly. although i can say nasty things in the end le, it me gt to solve it. ass hole..now understand y my sis cant stand home. even i not at home also hell. i should run away like her. wads the use of a family huh??? when i am in my deepest point of life they onli know TALK, COMPLAIN, POINT FINGERS. den when i truly need help......NONE OFFERS. i think in this world we are all alone, we come here alone, we die alone, we leave alone. since NO ONE even ur family understands or pities or helps u..........urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhi wan to die le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

can anybody ever understand wad the hell i am goin through? its so easy to say "ignore la", "u should have done this and that". wads the point when things have alr happened? honestly i think sometimes when we r in the dark we wan a listening ear and that to c some light. we dont need anyone to keep rubbing salt on our wounds. i try to make life simplier by keeping quiet. wads the point of explainin when people dun ever LISTEN. i think this veri big word, all of us need to learn. we lack listening skills. haiz talk is easy and its always empty air......
Mum always sae"forget it la, dun argue, keep quiet" when somethings happens to her but here she is now asking me to do this and that. saying i should do this way and blah blah. fuck la. life is so damn bloody difficult. everything i do is wrong. she is always complainin that i think i am always right. wad is soo wrong about keeping quiet??? wad do i have to defend myself when i did it before but was of utter use??? sis matter made mum upset, i listened and tried to make her happier. she says i handle things badly. i think i am a much better LISTENER, because besides listening i did ACTION. den who the hell i pour my sorrows too does that.....none. all so smart to sae "do this la, dun do that la, ignore la". fuck is that a solution ever???
gosh.
i am veri fed up with so mani things la and if i need to learn to handle a sly fox den so sorry i am veri busi. i gt my life and house matters to be bothered with. i dun have so much energy to learn tatics that will win a match cause it never ends!!!!

urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-18T13:24:00.000+08:00

Stop making life so difficult and complicated by being afraid to fully live it. Start spending more time as the person you truly are.
Stop building elaborate scenarios in your mind about what might or might not happen. Start giving your focus and energy to making the most of the moment you're in.
Stop wishing that things had been different. Start seeing the real, positive value and experience you've gained from where you've been.
Stop being so obsessed by the things you don't have and constantly distracted by your desire for more. Start to fully appreciate your blessings and to enjoy the true abundance of always having enough.
Stop worrying and fretting over what others may think. Start confidently offering your own special values, gifts and perspectives to life.
Stop wasting your time wondering about what could have been. And start to discover for yourself the incredible wonders of what can be.
-- Ralph Marston

i received a msg this mornin full of hostility. dun understand wad the hell have i done. been avoiding to thread on her toes. but its still nt enough. pissed enough with her childish and "xiao" ren actions. lucki hubbi, cousins also understand. that's enough for me. a consolation i should say. life has always been veri smooth sailing for me till i met these thorns, try as hard as i can to make those thorns not pricky it still does nt work. i should say now i have given up hope.to the extent i dun even wish to say or reply. never ending msg......wads the point. i do have others to msg besides wasting that 5cents on her. i c no point... its my life and no ones gonna rule me. i shall create the picture for myself. she can wallow in her own sense of anger for it does nt disturbs me!!!

2006-07-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

i finally started to wash baby clothes and packed them. sat went out with mum and sis. her driving's cool la.....like her new car. white VIOS. nice. hope she will drive safely!!! her driving skills also superb le!!! heee. bought towels, bibs at AUSSINO for baby. sale ma!! haha
watched pirates of the carribean on sunday. not nice la. maybe nt mt genre of movies. sucky! had dinner den headed home to rest and plonked to bed at 8 plus. super tiredz......................
wad do u mean by family? NEGOTIATION, CARING, UNDERSTANDING. but somewhere out there i dont c it. i onli c FORCE. favouritism is too much for me too bear, the thought of it itself irks me. pity him....all i can do is relieve him from hurts and pain. but if i can i gonna shoo them all away.

2006-07-14T09:46:00.000+08:00

gosh i am getting fatter. this mroning i weighed, nearly 53kg........omg!! yesterdae watched the jean yip variety show. so sad that those women gt chided by BF, Family, strangers and frens. wah after birth effects is comin over me!! HELP. how to lose those weight at the arms and thighs huh. wah die die.......i need to work out. maybe shoudld sign some package to work out? how man how man. i am getting all the jittters. after watching the show last nite felt reali sad. is it a crime for being FAT? y make them feel so hurt. its true once u r FAT u lose the self confidence. need help to bring it back.....i need to pray i will slim down. i am depressed!

2006-07-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

Today.....
Today before you think of saying an unkind word Think of someone who cant speak Before you complain about the taste of your food Think of someone who has nothing to eat Before you complain about your husband or wife partner Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion
Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven Before you complain about your children Think of someone who desires children but they're barren Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep Think of the people who are living in the streets
Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet And when you are tired and complain about your job Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around
Life is a gift
Live it...
Enjoy it...
Celebrate it...
And fulfill it.
Everyday .......have a wonderful day!

2006-07-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

i am fat. reali fat. i cant wear my diamond ring. URGH!! i gt short, fat fingers. yikes!!!!!!! i also discovered my watched all i cant wear. i went to extend the straps of another watch cause it was too tight. i am fat. reali fat. :(
hubbi sae sponser me slimming. ya he better do if i cant slim. hope its not in the genes. my mum used to be slimmed den balloned during pregnancy and remained like that. i CANT'!! i wana my pre pregnancy figure. waist at 22cm...weight at 39kg. now thats a far far cry from the 51kg i am and dun know wad waist!!!!
pregnancy sure does have it pros and cons. but all elso does nt matter la hor....baby healthy can alr. JUST WAN TO COMPLAIN AND GRUMBLE!!
eh hubbi did his exhaust yesterdae and now its freaking noisy. just as loud as choosing a seat next the the turbines of a plane. wa lau. how can tbe inspection past. even stationary also the sound so loud. he BLUFF me.....sae sould like his previous CIVIC. but that is a lie. BIG lie. its a far cry man. now at every SPEED, stationary, starting engine it all has that roaring engine sound. noisy la......hmmpz
aniwae its done and wad to do??? pray hard to fines or sunmmon from government. oh ya baby bed came yesterdae. now the nursery is done. i will have to start washing his clothes and the bedding set..........................i need to find a good weekend. reali to start washing and packing them to the cupboard!!
mum's funni lar keep askin me change baby name to TIMOTHY. yikes!! sux. no thks. thats is so lamo, common. me gonna keep with my choice!!! D_ r_u_. can u figure out that special name???

hee.........................

2006-07-10T09:57:00.000+08:00

woo hoo world cup is over!!! i betted on the last 2 matches. haha so glad i won. cant believe i can guess. before the third place match and the finals. i was testing my luck and i guess correctly onced again. so i decided to bet since it was the end of season. true enough my predictions came through. the odds were high for a draw for the italy vs france match at 2.85!!!!!
thinking back, i used to remember the times i was betting with my frens. the excitement we had from watching at pubs. now me wake up and check result. SHAG. haha but still feel kan cheong la. sat i went to my pedicure, cause cant even cut my toe nails. stomach too big. haha. oh ya managed to catch up with dad. he left for melbourne on sun. gonna miss him. when he is back next time round my son should have been born!! den slept over at mum's place till sun. aniwae besides winning the 2 matches the weekends was dull.........

2006-07-07T11:09:00.000+08:00

hubbi gonna be on duty on sat. poor me alone!! mum also goin for national day preview. so suay all of them gt prog. boo hooo.........i hate to be alone. wad should i do? shopping?? i will spend lotsa $$$..............................................................

2006-07-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

its nearing lunch on a thur afternoon. haven been bloggin....too busi! eh superman show quite lamo le. his face also so plastic but must admit quite like keanu reeves. so sad when i think about him. :( haiz aniwaes monday went for my check up...baby is fine he is 1.25kg now......as i enter third trimester i begin to feel somewhat tired and heavy. oh ya weight increasing rapidly. 1 mth 4 kg le....i am like 50.6kg now!!!! can u imagine? fats fats everywhere.face looks round, arms look flabby, thighs getting thicker...................opps....does that sound horrible?
gtg makan...baby's hungry!!!

2006-06-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

i am gonna try out wad golden village offers for citibank gold class visa patrons. each tickets is priced at 25 bucks with beverages and light snacks in house. hmmm goin to take a peek and watch superman!!
i receive an email to enter this link: http://parentswish.com
It is so touching.........i particularly liked this phrase: "if when we speak to u, we reapeat the same things over and over again, do not interrupt us, listen to us. When u were small, we had to read to you the same story until you went to sleep."
the whole slide show just summarize our milestones in life as a kid and how our parents guided us through. when they grow old they will lose the ability, all they want us as children to do is loved them the way they have loved us!!
Although they have been "mean" at times, they sure took the time and effort to bring us up.
Go home today and tell ur parents u treasure them and love them!!

2006-06-27T10:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday had dinner at the soup restaurant....den headed home again. so monotonous life. we r we actuali living for? we earn, spend money, pay bills. is this wad the existence of humans are for? as i approach the end if second trimester, i keep getting dreams that r so weird. like how life would be like with precious ard.......etc. feel him move and c stomach growing each day, tells me how close i am with him in his arrival. this wonderful GOD creation which i can never explain. how did a small tiny dot/yolk sac turn into human? its amazing!! when bb inside me doin funni things, like suddenly the whole stomach will end up shaking like he is rubbing somewhere. i feel like laughing. anyway such feeling is indescribable. to come this far to c his grow from less than 3 mm to a good 51cm at birth is amazing.
i know i will have to give up some of the goods things i used to have. i am ready and preparing myself for it. its a scarifice to be a mother. i hope all pregnant woman and their babies will be safe during delivery. God pls watch over them!

2006-06-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

i have finally crossed the 100th day to the birth of my precious.....wow time sure passes quickly. goin to end of 2nd trimester. can starting counting the days, 98, 97, 96, 95, 94....................................excited!! cant wait to start to care and love for him. i believe like all parents, the piority will be their children. they would want the best for them. i hope i can provide him with the best too.
weekends finally could catch up with man hung, sean and the rest. nice knowing they r doin well. its been a long long time since i saw them. guess i wouldnt have the oppportunity in the next few weeks till birth of my son. cause i will have antenatal lessons coming up reali soon. sunday was a success, both sis and bro came. i slept from 8 pm till today morning, long huh!! catching up on my beauty sleep.........................

2006-06-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

opps my mother collegue has a boi too.....i heard something funni. from my father. he was commenting that his life in aussie in tough cause he as got to look after my 2 bros. cook, wash, send them to sch etc. the like of a house man. den a auntie commented that he should ask the boys to do it....den he said "aiya they where will do for u, keep disturbing me and callin me dad, dad!" say if gt girl will ask the girl to do the whole house. when asked y, he said "girls have every reason to clean house, can tell them if they dun learn, next time cannot married." thats lame le. how come so sexist hor.....LOL
dad said" ask boys to clean, mop wait become girly and enjoy house work, so better dun". thats nonsense tooo............

so which sex is better boy or gal? does it makes a diff??

2006-06-23T10:25:00.000+08:00

friday 23 june 2006. must be a bad day!! i left my HP somewhere. should be at home ba...den on the mrt to work today, i sat next to a ah pek whu was so bloody disgusting. still think he wear until damn handsome. yikes. he dug his ear, his nose, his mouth. yikes!! i was like so disgusted with him den i sat nearer and nearer to the woman beside me. i was like cramping her up!! wa lau still he can keep adjust his shirt like damn super handsome like that. gross!! with his such etiquettes he possessed he will be a show stopper rather. :P

a surprise news from a collegue, she is pregnant too.. congrates!! now i c older woman getting preggie. they alr have 2 kids in upper pri....so envious of them huh!! its gonna be tough though. cant retire earli, more tiring...cause of other kids and commitments!! but its good news!!
Joyz is back from aussie, her long long holiday... i recieved jelly beans, nougats and a handphone strap. so nice of her. thanks gal!!

hubbi bought a spanner and the chairs are fixed. now my guests for sunday have places to sit. i must comment that my kitchen now looks better with a dining table and chair. i used to have the table bt no chairs. now perfect. white and black combination. like othello!! hahahaha

dear God, pls help this fri 23rd jun to fly by quickly.........

2006-06-22T10:32:00.000+08:00

yesterdae went to ikea. grabbed my clothes stand from there yippee!!! i also bought a plant...now i have a mini garden. we also bought stones to decorate. how nice!! bought the chairs. hubbi had a hard time fixing the chairs too...he saidsomething abt the nuts and screws..erm bla bla. he hurt his hand and we gonna get spanner to do it.
i hate to organize things. it so difficult to get people together. aniway the gloomy picture is on them. just gonna show how much they wan to spend time or how much others means to them . its the effort no matter how long or short time is spent. time is created by humans. can u imagine saying ok den nt turnin up? a reason may sound valid on ur end. but people will wonder if its true. aniwae with that decide wad image u want to cast.

dear bro and sis, pls turn up on sunday!!

2006-06-21T11:42:00.000+08:00

oh dad and his family is coming to my house on sunday. they wana check it out!! have ordered mini buffet. co sponsors...my sister alvina. Daniel is coming too....hee!! gonna be busy. hubbi is off today wonder if we goin to IKEA after work to buy stools. or else sunday all must sit on the floor. :P hmmmm.................

2006-06-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

i woke up late today. stupid. i off the alarm at 7 and lucki i woke up at 7.25 to check the time. gosh the rainy weather made it a perfect time for sleepin. jummped out of bed and off to work. i am home alone today. hubbi gt his duty and me have to cook my own dinner. well well.....oh ya my fridge is gonna "kong" off anytime i guess. accordin to my mum she said if a fridge "sweats" its prob goin to"kong". oh no!!!!!!! hope its not ..... goin home check it out. laters~

2006-06-19T11:41:00.000+08:00

saturday was ok......we went to buy hubbi N80. he finally laid his itchy fingers on that phone. he traded in my phone too for that phone. he better buy me 1 more. :P lucki i gt another phone. whole night he was playing with it. even when we woke up on sunday he was still playin with it. went to church, den headed to causeway point to cut hubbi hair den we went IKEA. bought mani things. i found a storage box to keep my rubbish and fit nicely at the corner of my room. DELIGHTED :)

Dad's back from melbourne, wne to his hse for surprise father's day!! he bought me each brand of anti stretch mark creams. ask me test which good den he will bring back more. funni rite?Again its monday and hope this week passes :~

2006-06-16T09:18:00.000+08:00

i received this e-mail.....its the onli explaination y choose to ignore the recent set backs i have. with 2 woman. i used to get angri and boiling whenever i c them. but wad is the point? they r the least affected by it. i should LET GO. as this article says LETTING GO does nt mean they are right but LETTING GO is to benefit ourselves by the emotional part of it. thats wad i am goin to do. i have told myself my family is onli wad GOD has bestowed on me. i gt wonderful mum, sis, bro, hubbi and a son. wad more do i wan? all others does nt matter so i should nt be upsetting myself. for i live for my family and nt accountable to anione else. i shall respect them for who they are but will never get sincerity. i need to close my doors to them so i can love and appreciate those who have loved me.

LETTING GO Dr. Alan Zimmerman's comments:
Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way. They'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you. And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you. It's able.

Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action made by another person, you're headed for deeper problems. In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get. You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you find more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it.

Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick. So what should you do the next time someone betrays you? TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings. In other words, other people do not "cause" your feelings. You choose them.

For example, two different people could be told that their suggestions made at the staff meeting were stupid and idiotic." One person may "choose" to feel so hurt that he never speaks up at any other meeting again. The other person may "choose" to feel sorry for the critic, sorry that the critic couldn't see the wisdom and necessity of her suggestions. As long as you blame other people for your feelings, as long as you believe other people caused your feelings, you're stuck. You're a helpless victim.

But if you recognize the fact that you choose your feelings and you are responsible for your feelings, there's hope. You can take some time to think about your feelings. And you can decide what is the best thing to say or do. Then, you've got to learn to WALK AWAY FROM DISAPPOINTMENT. It's difficult to do, but it's possible.

The famous 19th century Scottish historian, Thomas Carlyle, proved that. After working on his multi-volume set of books on "The French Revolution" for six years, Carlyle completed the manuscript and took volume one to his friend John Stuart Mill. He asked Mill to read it. Five days later, Mill's maid accidentally threw the manuscript into the fire.

In agony, Mill went to Carlyle's house to tell him that his work had been destroyed. Carlyle did not flinch. With a smile, he said, "That's all right, Mill. These things happen. It is a part of life. I will start over. I can remember most of it, I am sure. Don't worry. It's all here in my mind. Go, my friend! Do not feel bad."

As Mill left, Carlyle watched him from the window. Carlyle turned to his wife and said, "I did not want him to see how crushed I am by this misfortune." And with a heavy sigh, he added, "Well the manuscript is gone, so I had better start writing again."

Carlyle finally completed the work, which ranks as one of the great classics of all time. He had learned to walk away from his disappointment. After all, what could Carlyle have done about his burnt manuscript? Nothing. Nothing would have resurrected the manuscript.

All Carlyle could do was to get bitter or get started. And what can you do about anything once it is over? Not much. You can try to correct it if it is possible, or you can walk away from it if it isn't. Those are your only two choices. Sometimes you've just got to shake it off and step up.

Finally, you need to FORGIVE. It's difficult, especially when the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness or doesn't even seek it. It's difficult when the other person is clearly in the wrong. Part of the difficulty comes from a common misunderstanding of forgiveness.

Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behavior is okay. And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the hook. He's still responsible for his misbehavior. Forgiveness is about letting yourself off the emotional hook. It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviors.

It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future. Everyone in your life, everyone on and off the job is going to disappoint you. If you know how to respond to those situations, you'll be way ahead of most people.

You'll be able to live above and beyond your circumstances. Action: Identify two people that have disappointed, hurt, or angered you. If possible, select two people towards whom you still have some bitterness.

Then ask yourself, "How does my bitterness serve me?
Am I happier holding on to it?
Do I sleep better?
Is my life richer, fuller, and better because of my bitterness?"

If you find that your bitterness is hurting you, make a decision. Actually decide to let it go. Walk away from the disappointment -- which means you no longer dwell on it or talk about it.
The CHOICE is yours!

2006-06-16T09:09:00.000+08:00

its fri again....ya hoo!! long awaited. but i hate tml. cause i need to go somewhere i reali dread. dun know y but it real sux big time. wad to do. i guess no one will ever know cause i dun sae or show. just all pretence. oh watever!! hope we dun have to stay too long for it sux. since sat is goin to be a lousy day i onli hope my sun is a special one....
eh man my B**bs keep leaking colustrum everi other dae. quite funni. when i sit down watch tv suddenly it just comes like that...its sooooo boring man~ oh ya i found i good way to sleep. hee i changed position with hubbi. so silly rite should have done it earlier.

2006-06-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

i called the massage lady last nite. she told me that she is nt a slimming centre and that she can help to trim the tummy down after birth but nt tone the stomach. i fully understand. she said that she had mani clients of which mani complained and had a rude shock that after the tying the skin was crumpled. she said this is natural be it whether u tie or nt. imagine this: blow a balloon tie it and release it. do u c that the ballon outer surface is also wrinkled up? upon hearing this, i immediately felt scared........i pondered on the sacrifices of all mothers in the world. to risk their beauty. ok i am nt saying i am one pretty woman, but to have had perfect figure and a bulge after pregnancy is a no no rite?
the woman said all woman who gave birth will look like 5-6 mths pregnant after delivery. hey that stomach is alr quite big ok. this massage can help trim the tummy so on the outside u look fine bt when u r naked u know for urself the effects of pregnancy. crumpled skin, stretch marks, loose skin. yikes!!! i now dilligently applt anti stretch mark creams in hope of minimizing them, as for the fats its worrisome. i am like hitting the scales almost every mth. i from a mere 39kg to my current 48kg. isnt that heavy???
now i begin to worry after delivery will figure come back?? will i look ugly?? oh my those questions keep appearing in my head. i den started to think on the times my mother took e pain to bring me up. look after us when sick, provide for us, be there whenever we needed her, tne times we went out together etc. now approaching motherhood, i begin to realize completely how much it takes to be a mother in fact. to have unconditional love for her childeren. be it good, bad, sick, healthy kids, a mother loves them all. i heard of touching story and it went like that:
peter used to telll his mum that he hated goin out with her as she always disgraced him. he always commented that he got stares from strangers. he too was chided by his friends. this was because his mother had onli 1 eye. soon peter married and moved out. a few years later, his mum visted him at his house and his whole family and his children had a rude shocked. again peter was upset. his mother left his place saying "i am sorry to have given u and ur family a shock, take care son." many years later, he decided to visit his mother at home. the old lady was dead. his mother left a letter and it wrote: "dear son, i am sorry to have caused u to be ashamed of me for mani yrs. i gave my eye to u so that u could c this beautiful world. never did i expect my gift to u to be a torture. i am sorry. love mum." tears flowed from peter eyes.
when i read this story i too felt sad. again asked myself wad have i done to appreciate worth of our parents. be it good or bad, they gave us our lives and brought us up. shouldnt we be the least grateful for that?
i think its time for me to grow up completely. i cannot be reliant. i need to be independant and sensible. in the next few mths i will soon have a son to care and love for like my mother did. i need to be ready and adjust my feelings. i wan to be a good mother. its gonna be difficult but i will try. as for my figure, i gt no choice rite? hahaha. i haved booked her aniwae and will den c whats the result. she is right we need to change our mentality that after birth we can never be the same as before.....

cheers to all mothers around the world.............................................

2006-06-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

wad a boring day. woke up with aches all over. dont know wads wrong. left leg cramp and even aching. wah lau eh wad happen?? i think the bad part of pregnancy is finding a best position to fall asleep. cause u cant lie on ur stomach or on ur back. my previous fav position is on my stomach. i used to be able to sleep 12 hrs straight. nw i wake up way before my time for work. i feel i have never slept. i mean its like nt refreshing la. i miss my good old days of SLEEPING!!
my sis gave me the number to book the massage lady and i will be callin her later at night. i booked the antenatal classes at TMC instead. cause mount alvernia too late can onli fit me on a sat class in my 32 weeks. consisting of 6 lessons...end 37 weeks. abit late la. TMC will start lessons in my 29 week. hurray!!! excited.

2006-06-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

morning!! todae i found someone's pouch consisting of ez-link card, $60+ bucks and her work pass. initially again i hesitated as to wad i should do with it. i msg hubbi and he said to return, dun take people $$. ok so that confirmed abt wad i should do with it. the moment i reached office, i call the number that was on the person access card and was out through to her. told her found her pouch containing the above items and she repeatedly said thank you. she said she lost mani times but was nt found. erm sometimes i wonder when we lose our things people dun return us we get upset but when we do this for others do we get any good out of it?
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we personally returned so that we will nt lose our things. cause there used to be a belief that if u picked up something, u wil drop something of ur own. wad abt ur opinion? ponder abt it. if one dae u come across someone's item how will u handle it? will u be tempted to keep them or return.

2006-06-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

another weekend has passed. it was a fulfilling one. woke up at 8 on sat and starting preparing to go out for big SHOPPING. went to Toa payoh Kiddy palace to get the change table. my sister transferred the $$, THANKS SIS!! shocked that the delivery man wanted $25 bucks for delivery and assembly. i was so furious that we decided to carry and assemble all by ourselves. of cos nt me la....but hubii. poor him carried the big big box weighin 14 kg to the car. i also bought the philips baby monitor and the anti slip mat for the tub. straight we headed to novena, wne to collect maternity wear i ordered. again was tempted to buy another piece. think i should stop buying now. i gt exactly 8 tops now. more than enough!! ate MAC for lunch and walked ard before heading to orchard.
at orchard we started shopping again. finally we bought the single bed at HECOM. nt bad selling at 59.90 for a solid pine bed. walked walked, shopped shopped. was so tired rested at TCC, den went all the way to centrepoint shopped before heading to have dinner. hubbi was nt hungri but he forced himself to eat cause wait i end up nt eating too. poor him so bloated. den we went home.
i bathed upon reaching home and tada the changed table was assembled. COOL!!!! sent the pic to sis and showed her. now my baby room's looks like i started on somewhere! den went for zzzzzzzz.

sunday stayed at home, cooked fish porridge for lunch. trying to get some nutrients as much as i can den took a nap before dinner den home again for boring MONDAY!!

2006-06-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

its finalli end of the week!! hurray. time passes so fast la hor....later will be going marina square to collect hubbi and mum specs. the GSS reali give us opportunity to buy stuff at a better bargain. just wad i needed cause now all the expensive items is for bb. wa quite unfair ar!!! hmm come to think of it.....all my $$ nxt time will be on my precious son. no more fanciful stuffs for me....boo hoo. MUM'S THE GREATEST! he better be good boi or will spank him.....:p
tml again shopping. but before that shall go to novena to collect some maternity wear i bought online.. hurray new addition to my current collection which is enough to wear onli 7 days a week. i keep wearing the same pieces every weekend, weekdays. if u notice its a uniform! wad to do few more mths la cant buy too much and maternity wear is expensive!! i shall TAHAN!!

2006-06-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

Went for some "talk".....well as Usual wad is left for me to sae when everything has been said? i belive the conscience will prick those who know wad they said was TRUTH or LIES. i chose to keep quiet and agreee bein the bad person since there was no ending to it. by doin so i gain merit not in this world but the next....sad to sae i am nt affected by wad the person had said.
i have been onto some work on my bb room.....hee. excited.

2006-06-06T13:54:00.000+08:00

yesterdae went for my check up.. bb fine's....saw him move..hee so cute. wonder wad he does in there everyday. over the weekends, i went to library to borrow some books on breastfeeding. sounds like a diffcult job. but sure can lose weight. den when to place deposit for the cot, bought bottles and the breast pump. offer le at mothercare. cheaper den kiddy palace. time is runnin out for me....in a few mths time BB is goin to be born. i cant help but feel excited cause i wonder who he looks like or will be like!!
cant wait for the new addition to our family. i still gt alot of stuff didnt get. better start shopping now during the GSS.......next weekend some shopping to be done..

p.s: better hope my sis dun aeroplane me...she promised me to buy my son the changing table. yee!!

2006-06-01T09:08:00.000+08:00

i did something great yesterdae. feel so happy. now i wont feel so cramped and all jabbings in my ribs!! yeah i changed ny B**. nice feeling can u imagine i gt free enhancement? if u wana increase ur B**BS SIZE cum'on go get a bb!!!!!!!! :P

2006-05-31T15:56:00.000+08:00

i am depressed and upset.....but who understands? HE thinks i am bullshitting cause i dun like HER. but I AM REALI NOT. who does nt wan that kind of care....who wans her own flesh to be treated like junk. i too went through the pain to carry. y would i choose to put my own flesh there? much as i like but if SHE cant afford that kinda of attention how am i goin to entrust him there? would anybody like the love & care offered to ur flesh a forceful and compromised one? NO RIGHT? its also cheaper.......
haiz there has been no end to this topic and must they realii all wait till i sink into some depression after birth before they come to realize the dirty tricks, lies, disbelief is hurting me?
to be fair even i consider ICare.....but wad am i gonna do when one keeps denying a fact when the whole world has been telling me. in fact i saw for myself how occupied she was with 1....yet the dearest person to me had to think i am bullshitting. pls stop lying and tell me straight...i wont be upset but at last i am prepared. dun drop the bombshell when u think that is the best time...for i may be hurt even worse. pls believe me!!